In my last post I mentioned how curves make us more feminine and evolutionarily more “child bearing” worthy. I think I took this to heart the last few months. In 4 months of Clomid I gained somewhere between 10 and 15 lbs. I know this isn’t as many pounds as some inferts, but it only took me 4 months (on a gluten free, dairy free diet by the way!) If I keep on this track I’m headed toward health problems not a healthy baby…
So I guess I’ll start with why I gained all that weight, or why I think. I’ll attribute part of it to Clomid being the devil. Seriously Clomid sucks; hot flashes, mood swings and weight gain are the top side effects, I managed all three.
Another part of it is that since I’m on a very restrictive diet I can eat very few things, in my mind that means used to mean I could eat how ever much I wanted of the few available choices. It turns out that isn’t really true if you want to fit into your jeans!
The last and most ridiculous reason; I didn’t want to shake out the baby. For a while I had to avoid running because of the huge cysts on my ovaries, but I don’t have that excuse anymore. I’ve been avoiding high impact work outs because I’m scared I’ll shake the little bean out of there. I’ve never even had a positive pregnancy test and I’m avoiding high impact workouts to save my non-existent pregnancy, I don’t even want to think about how stupid that sounds out loud…
So here is my plan. Get to a healthy BMI of 24 (the experts say this is the “ideal” baby making BMI.) I have 14 pounds left to lose (I lost 2 last week.) I got a great new app on my iphone called Lose it, its pretty much a calorie counting program. I’m also back to high impact workouts, Crossfit three times per week.
As an added motivator Blue and my Europe trip is the month before IVF. It’s worth it to have a bikini body since post IVF (hopefully twins) I don’t expect to ever be able to wear a bikini again.
So raise your glass water to my last hurrah with a beach bod, and to the optimistic hope that I’ll only get to enjoy it for about two months!
I admire your motivation :)) Will be lovely to be in Europe in the lead up to IVF... hope you never need to wear a bikini again after this summer - in the nicest possible way :)) Twins would be much more fun xoxo
ReplyDeleteYou are so inspiring! I laughed when you talked about shaking out the non-existent pregnancy. I use that excuse to myself when I don't want to engage in any strenuous activity. I've actually started telling myself that I am "practicing" only doing low impact activities for when I get pregnant. Ah...the games I can play with myself. You sound like you are in an awesome place and I have all of the faith in the world that you can pull this off. Can't wait to hear about your vacation...and the bikini that you rock during the vacation.
ReplyDeleteI can so relate!! Fertility drugs have made me gain weight and retain water. I am so bloated. I can lol and relate to shaking out the baby! I always avoided much exercise thinking it would harm my non existent baby. Good luck to you! :-)
ReplyDeleteThanks girls! I'm so glad I'm not the only one worried about "shaking" the baby before its even there! I'm sure if my husband read this he'd never let me live it down! But on a serious note I think I'll end up doing 3 days of bed rest post transfer because its better to be safe than sorry!...
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