I can't help but wonder if God is trying to tell me something. I have horrifically painful ovulation, it hurts to walk let alone do 'it'. If I was born any time before the 1960s I wouldn't have even known when I should do it and certainly wouldn't have wanted to do it when I felt so awful.
So is having painful ovulation an evolutionary suggestion that maybe you shouldn't do it when you're able to make a baby?
What about passing off these endometriosis genes? Am I just overriding the natural selection against my genes? If my hypothetical daughter has endo will I feel guilty forever knowing that I passed it on to her? My mom had endo and I certainly wouldn't ask her to go back and choose not to have me, but my pain is much worse than hers, what if my daughter's is worse than mine?
So I get down in the dumps until I think of the other "what ifs." What if they find a cure for endo? What if my daughter never even has to think about it? And then I let myself look forward to bringing a baby girl into this world.
I ovulated yesterday, CD15. The TWW begins!